Mum said it would be a good idea to write you a letter to let you know how things are going here. She thought it might help me to stop missing you, which I do dreadfully.
It’s very quiet here without you. Mum and I don’t make a lot of noise really, as when I start barking at next door’s cat, she tells me “That’s enough” and I stop. Not like you did, going on and on for ages! Then Mum tells me I’m a good girl. I like that.
Yesterday Mum went out in the car and got some shopping. She wasn’t very happy when she came back, and was crying when she came in. Something about your fur being in the boot when she loaded her shopping, I think. I heard her tell someone she’s going to sell the car and buy a new one. Then she said she was going to sell the house when I’d gone as well. I don’t know what that meant, but I didn’t like the sound of it much. Then she went off with someone else for the rest of the day and left me all on my own until the evening. I was okay, and just went to sleep until she came home. Then we had a nice cosy evening watching TV and things.
I can’t get used to you not being in your basket with me at night, but I still don’t go in your basket because I know you would be cross that I was in it. I’ve been very good for Mum and she hasn’t had to clear up any of my mess on the newspaper since you’ve been gone. I just wait until she gets up and lets me out. I think she prefers that. I’m really worried that she took you away somewhere because you made such a mess that last week you were here. She says you’ve gone to Heaven, but I don’t know where that is. I don’t think she ever called the kennels “Heaven” or the vets, so I still don’t know where you are.
Today she went off in the car again and left me at home. When she came back, I went rushing to the door to greet her, thinking she may have brought you home, but she was on her own, and then she immediately put on my collar and lead and took me out in the car, because it was still warm. I was really thinking she was taking me to wherever Heaven is as well, but she actually took me to the park we used to walk in before you couldn’t get into the back of the car any more. I couldn’t believe how wonderful it was to walk there again instead of just walking around the boring old blocks where we live. I had a smile on my face all the way round, and couldn’t stop wagging my tail. You would have loved it.
First of all I was trying to find your scent, but it wasn’t there at all. I suppose it is a few months since you went there, and it has probably been washed away. I had a few more sniffs when we went into the other park, but there was no sign of you there either. There wasn’t really any sign of anything. No rabbits, no squirrels, and no other pesky dogs. But it was nice to get out in the open air for a little while.
Blimey! It was cold in the park. It started to snow while we were out, but it didn’t settle. It was good to get back home in the warm before the blizzard started. I’ve been moulting loads of my fur because I thought it was Spring last week, and Mum gave me another massive brushing this morning. She must have brushed a carrier bag full of my fur off me, and it’s still coming. I think I should have waited, because the weather has taken a turn for the worse this week.
After we got home from the park Mum put clean blankets in my basket. She hung out your top blanket to have a blow, and I thought she would have put clean blankets in your basket too, but she left just the bottom blanket there, so I guess you won’t be coming back yet. I hope you are having a good time in Heaven and I hope your back legs feel better.
Anyway, I think I feel a bit better now I know I can still write to you even if you aren’t here. Mum says you will know that we are thinking about you all the time. She’s put a big collage of photos of you on her laptop, so she can keep looking at you and thinking about better times she had out in the park with you.
Keep safe and well, my beautiful litter sister. I know I moaned at you a lot, but I loved you really and I miss you so very much.
Lots of love
p.s. Mum sends her love too. xxxx